Powerful Priestess Productions

 Trigger warning.  For example, sexual assault was when I pretended to be asleep and the man pulled my pants off. That was a sexual assault before I kicked him off of me.  When I felt uncomfortable but allowed myself to be coaxed, I didn't say no to the older man at the bar, that was an unwanted sexual experience. My childhood grooming made me feel like I didn't have a choice but at no point did I say the interaction was unwanted out loud.  Rape is something more than sexual assault. Rape is when I told my partner that I didn't want to have sex but he pushed me onto the bed and pulled off my clothes. I whimpered before turning pain into pleasure, satisfying myself three times so it wouldn't be rape, right?  Kill proven rapists. None of this accused shit. People accuse rape all of the time when it is an unwanted sexual experience, or even when they regret it. If racism is a potential factor for prosecuting someone, don't kill them because how could it really be f...

 Hello all - welcome to my blog. I like to talk about my feelings here.  I am feeling overall better these days. It's really nice. It makes the harder days more confusing.  I love my body but I also have a little bit of hatred for the things that she went through and that I have to wear the flashbacks on my skin. I was intimate with my partner last week and I had to stop him because the flashback was too overwhelming. Parts of my body have been kinda numb since.  I disassociate a lot from my body. Last year when my pain was too much for my body to handle, I felt like a zombie. I honestly don't know how I didn't end up in a hospital on self- harm watch yall. Oh yeah, breathwork!  I have been still struggling with s*icide ideation. It sounds like a christian prayer to go to heaven. Please lord take me this time. So the bad days I still experience this. But I am working to replace the death wish with a plan for my future.  I am planning this beautiful vision f...