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 When sadness is too much, it turns into anger. So many people are so angry in this country. We need more kindness to cure the anger.  I have been angry before. Too angry. I am so grateful to not be in that space anymore. I still don't like feeling my feelings though. I am a therapist who likes to avoid :)  I have had a break from processing my trauma. I have enjoyed it. I need to resume processing, at a much healthier pace, not something that pushes me to near psychosis. I am afraid to process more pain but I know that it will be better for me in the long run.  BRB, I am working on myself. 

Last year, 2024, I had a mid-life crisis. I questioned everything in my life, myself, my community, my relationships. I felt as though I picked shards of glass out of my body, my heart, my stomach, my mind.  I have tried so hard my entire life y'all. I have had moments of falter; haven't we all? I still did my best to repair any harm that I had done.  My body feels new. I know all of the pain isn't gone yet, but I feel alive. I feel happy. I feel brave and unafraid. I got me and I am showing up for me in ways I never have.  I had to make a choice. I had to show up better for myself because my life had gotten so chaotic it was flowing over. I no longer felt safe in my own home. My home has been a sanctuary that I created for myself. But I let it be corrupted because I wanted to be loved.  I am so grateful to the decision that I made to take a break from alcohol. I encourage you to take a break longer than you are comfortable with of any of your vices. Think that you c...

Note: I am sharing what I believe. I will respect your beliefs if you will respect mine <3  Jesus was a cool dude.  But there are some plot holes in the story. The story goes that he began preaching when he was 30 years old. Why did he have to wait so long? If he was as amazing as the stories told, he didn't need to be 30 years old because he would have been able to conduct miracles before that. My theory is that he was much more of a regular dude than religion portrays him out to be.  I think Jesus is awesome. His parables inspire hope in millions of people. I believe that Jesus is the son of god like that we are all god's children because we came from source. Maybe there is a deity called god. It would be cool to have a heavenly parent. Or gods like in Greek mythology or other pantheistic religions. I don't know and I am not attached to an idea. But essentially, we are all god's children because we are all made up of stardust and spiritual essence.  I do believe...

I am grateful for it all. I know you hear me complain but I am grateful for it all.  My life has taught me to have compassion, centeredness, and have lots of fun. I love myself so much; I am in love with me. How grateful I am to be able to say that.  My life has given me sorrows that I don't wish on another. It has taken me to the edge of sanity to see what lies beneath. I am grateful to have stayed above the surface in my sanity. It has given me perception into the below while building appreciation for sanity - what a beautiful gift.  I am grateful to be a therapist. I understand the importance of the skills. I know how to use the skills. My individual therapy has taught me to use coping skills and being a therapist has deepened my appreciation.  I appreciate the different job experiences that I have worked. I worked as a collector for a major credit card company from 2009 to 2013. That taught me the importance of saving and not accumulating credit card debt. I am l...

I was in a dream.  I knew that I was lucid dreaming so I choose to fly around. When I settled back on ground, I walked into a square garden. I wanted to speak with someone from my family so I called out into the ethers.  A sparkling silhouette approached the garden gate and I welcomed her in. She announced that she was my step aunt Marjory that had passed away. She told me that my grandparents were busy with other objectives but she wanted to come so that I knew I was loved and supported.  She told me that the LDS / Mormon / Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints was a "fine religion." Those were the exact words that I heard. One of the definitions of fine means "high quality." What this means to me is that the LDS faith can help people achieve enlightenment.  I took from this dream is that my anger with the religion is my own. This faith serves many people. If this is the faith that helps people find happiness, I support that. My anger with my own experience w...

I was reading some of the older blogs on here. I did get better. I have been getting better since 2020. 2019/2020 were my lowest years. I used to think my post divorce years were the lowest. But hey I had a blast then. I am too old for that shit now. The years make me bitter. Really, it was probably the alcohol. My current addictions are nicotine, coffee, and nonalcoholic beverages. I have got to cut this nicotine habit: side note. The universe will do that to us; things get worse and worse until we learn our lesson. I am learning my lessons. I am growing. I am grateful for that. I look back and I pity who I have been: a sad, lost girl. But I love her still. She did her best. She has maintained a job always, even if sometimes barely LOL. She takes care of her little dog, her baby girl. I love my previous self, even through the self inflicted pain. I have been in therapy for over 8 years now (combined years.) I have read books. I have worked my ass off to be better even as I slipped int...

I am taking some time off of social media to deepen the reconnection to myself.  I have had two days off insta and Facebook. So far it’s been nice. I have been reconnecting with my creativity. I like to be a busy bee and social media can drain me.   It hasn't been helping my mental health lately. It can be an easy distraction but it gets me too in my head about what others are thinking.  Taking a break makes me want to be more careful with my energy. People who don't like me are quick to talk nasty about me.  If you have a grievance with me, you are welcome to contact me and I will listen to what you have to say.  My intention is that I want to connect to my highest self more clearly to guide me on my path to helping humans achieve our greatest kindness. We have so much that we can achieve as a species. But it requires everyone to have access to mental health and spiritual connections. That means everyone needs to be able to afford life and to live comfortably. ...